Takes one to know one....Liar...wait...

It seems to be that everyone is a liar now days. Now hear my out till I'm finished typing all this. But I really do, and I don't mean that in vicious attitude. But everyone is a liar by simple human nature. I like it though, knowing everyone is a liar. I mean, I take it that everyone lies, or, bends the truth, whatever you fancy. But I think it gives you the edge if you never take it as the whole truth, even if it is the whole truth. The reason behind that is simple, if they lie you won't ever get caught off guard. Well, maybe sometimes.

I like to believe everyone lies all the time. The reason is, if I need to gather info, not dirt, but info, I can always get the truth and a lie. It seems to me when you ask someone something, a story, gossip, rumors, anything really. They tend to give you a truth filled lie. Meaning no matter what, you have a lie, but you also have truth. You just have to be good at...lying to pick out the lies in the story they give you. Takes one to know one if you know what I mean. I'm not saying I'm a liar, I mean sure, I have lied before, but who hasn't.

Oh, for that first part about getting truth and lies, is the next time they lie, it'll most likely be the same, the truth will be different.

So am I a liar in telling you all this, or am I telling the truth? Maybe I'm beating around the bush hoping you understand what I'm saying. Oh, or hinting at something! Maybe I'm crying out for help, by telling lies? Why would I do that? I'm afraid, afraid of the truth, hoping someone will force me out of my comfort zone, because I can't do it.

I tend to like liars...or should I say people...Either way, I like liars because they are puzzles to me. Like I told my friend, I'll find out what's going on, I'll pick out the lies so I know the truth, then build around it. It's like reverse psychology? I'm not sure....Whatever you want to call it, it works.

Oh, and for you people who say "I tell the truth all the time!" You need to stop lying.

I've never met you before...

Lately it has been interesting to me. I have been talking and meeting people I don't even know in real life. I guess that might sound strange, but I know friends of theirs that are good friends of mine. So I guess in a way, I know them. But if you thought that was strange, get this. I have found comfort in talking to a almost complete stranger. I like knowing whatever I tell them won't come back to haunt me. Although that might not be full proof, in my mind, it is.

I feel I can say or tell them anything. Feel confident in who I am and who they are. I never really understood my connection to people. People have been telling me lately that I am easy to get along with, comforting, relaxed, a hiding place. That's all I have ever wanted to be, a safe zone away from evil, darkness, pain.

I think the reason I am comforting to people is because I have been through what they are just going through. I always self inflicted drama or pain, chaos and sadness upon myself. To prep my mental stability to help people. I mean it's true, we build up our life around safety routines. But I built mine to be exposed to it. So when darkness lurks between the cracks of my friends walls, I will be there to stop it.

"Chaos is a friend of mine." ~ Bob Dylan

I'm dreaming of a white Valentines

On February 12, 2010. Vidalia Georgia got around 3 inches of snow since 1992, the year I was born. That is 17 years believe it or not ripley! This was a great day! But sadly, I was stuck at work getting orders just watching the snow. This day was possible the best worst day that has happened in a long time. Let me give you the pros and cons...

Pros:

I got off work early

It snowed!

I got a valentine :)

I hung out with some friends

Played in the snow

enjoyed life for around an hour

True friends

Cons:

Broken glass

hitting/tapping someones car

getting stuck trying to go home

getting stuck having your friend come pull you out, just so you can brake an oil pipe after you spent $8000.00 having it fixed. Thats right, that has 5 zero's, no typos.

So after my day of mixed emotions, I am finally home, without a car, work tomorrow, tending to peoples needs, hoping I don't have a cold tomorrow, hoping his car is fine, awkward moments, all these crazy things really.

I'm not too sure how to think of today. But I do know I got a fortune cookie today that said "remember this date, good things will happen to you in three month." You better be right fortune, I put all my Asian power into you!!!

Anyways, I have a long day ahead of me tomorrow, I gotta get some sleep. I just popped a few pills to help me and sipping on MT. Dew.

Happy Valentines Day to all, and too all a good night!

Beautiful

Sorry I haven't updated in a while. I have either been at work, taking peoples orders and mopping the floor. Or I have been out trying to have an average life. Although, with the worlds chaos trying to search me out of my hiding place. I have still found peace in my music and I always will. It might be playing or listening, either way, my soul is at rest.

Recently, I have grown out of my somewhat normal life and gone into the work force. To supply myself with random activity's and my random eating habits. Fueling my childish needs for material items. Saving up for my trip in Sweden soon.

This is not counting my home life, with school and family. Then staying updated with friends, it can be hard sometimes. Lately I have also made tons of new friends and reunited with some old ones. In this amazing collision, I have lost touch in some close friends. Not in a bad of course, but, none-the-less, I still have.

Today, I spent the day to myself, I have been drinking tea all day, with the television off and my music on. I spend most of my time on my floor thinking, while looking out my window at the pond. Although, today it was raining so that was very pleasing to me. My room being the wreck it was always meant to be, I sit, in silence. With clothes piled high, my guitar case next to me as I use it as a mini desk. So I can set my hot tea, pen, paper, book of quotes, and computer on it. My guitar in my lap, I play on and off laying on the ground watching the fan spin with my mind.

After about two hours of that, I ran into a song I have always knew about but never seriously took a look at. The song is called "Bella Donna" by "The Avett Brothers." Such a amazing song, with vocals that linger and guitar riffs that chill to the bones. I believe he speaks of a girl he knows, not named Bella, but Donna. That he had very close connections with and lost in time. I think he liked he but she never took the time to look into him. Although, he tired his best to get her attention.

Bella is short for Isabella, meaning Beautiful. So you could just say Beautiful Donna. I'm not too sure what to say about the lyrics and names, but I do know their is a soul in this song. So I challenge you to go around your house and turn off everything that makes noise and turn up your computer and listen. If your home with family and they are watching tv, then maybe just shut your door or pop in headphones. But do not check your facebook, cell phone, answer that text, respond to mother or father pause the song in any way. But to keep your eyes shut and pay attention for once.

Enjoy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XybDZ9I9k4k